Title: Neon Moon
Summary: New Moon A/U. Abandoned by the Cullens, Bella emerges from depression with a wall around her heart and a chip on her shoulder. Closed off and immersed in her college studies, she finds her emotional outlet in a surprising source.
For almost six months I’d wallowed in unspoken grief without Renee’s help until finally I gathered enough strength to quit feeling sorry for myself and stop screaming every damn morning. In the last two and a half months I’d finally been able to make myself act like a human being—set personal goals, plan things, carry on conversations again, eat full meals—all without needing or expecting anything from her. I didn’t need a mom anymore, and even if I did, I was wise enough to realize she wasn’t capable of being that for me.