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Fanfic - first attempt

Title: Over you

Author: rebel_poet

Rating: G

Genre: Romance (I guess - please correct me if I'm wrong)

Characters/Pairings: Bella/Edward

Summary:

Can Bella ever get over Edward? Can a song change her outlook on what has happened? A one shot songfic using Chris Daughtry’s song, Feels Like Tonight.

A few spoilers from New Moon – only slightly.

I mustn’t think of that anymore”, she thought to herself, “that part of my life is…over”. With that last thought the tears spilled over. She couldn’t think of her life with Edward as being over. This couldn’t be happening.


“It will be as though I’d never existed”.

Bella stared at what was written before her. In his perfect handwriting were eight words in which would change her life forever. She couldn’t believe what she’d read, she didn’t want to believe what she’d read. How could this have happened? They were so happy – the perfect couple. Or so she had thought.

Sinking to the floor, tears started to well up in her eyes, yet she refused to let them see the light of day. She needed to be strong, not weak. She needed to think over everything. Had she missed something? Going over everything carefully in her head she couldn’t recall anything going majorly wrong. Sure there was the slight mishap at her birthday celebrations at the Cullen house – but that couldn’t really be the reason behind the note.

For what seemed like an eternity Bella sat on the floor trying to fathom what was going on. Her perfect man, Edward Cullen, was leaving her. For good. According to what he’d written he would no longer exist. Immediately she thought the worst. He couldn’t kill himself. Especially if this was over something as trivial as her cutting her finger at her birthday celebrations. Accidents like that happen, probably not the best accident to have happen when surrounded by vampires. But still.

She could think of this no longer. She needed to escape, she needed to forget what she’d read – if only for a moment. Slowly getting up, she held onto her desk for support. Walking over to her music collection she came across a mixed cd that had been made for her as a present from her mum and Phil. She couldn’t remember what was on it; it had been ages since she’d listened to it last. She had grown used to listening to Edward playing piano for her – her lullaby. “I mustn’t think of that anymore”, she thought to herself, “that part of my life is…over”. With that last thought the tears spilled over. She couldn’t think of her life with Edward as being over. This couldn’t be happening.

Putting the cd into her player she couldn’t shake the feeling that she was being watched. It was a feeling she’d had before. The very first night she dreamt of Edward Cullen she woke up with a start and could have sworn that he was there in her room watching her. It of course had merely been a dream, that time. Try as she may, she couldn’t stop thinking of Edward. Every song on the cd reminded her of him; even a sole word from a song could bring back memories of him, of their time together. Trying to shut the thoughts out, she flicked through the remaining music on the cd. Thinking nothing more of it she put a song on to play that sounded vaguely familiar. Lying down on her bed Bella let the music wash over her. It wasn’t until she played the song again did she realise that the lyrics had a strange comparison to her circumstances. Turning up the song she listened to the lyrics more carefully.

Now that it’s all said and done
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me

Bella gasped. The opening verse of the song hit her hard. These lyrics rang true for her. The note that Edward had left for her had indeed left her cold and out of breath. When she read it, she felt as though she’d never be happy again. Everything had been knocked from her – she wanted to curl up into a ball and die. Those eight words had made her feel empty and she didn’t know how she could go on without the man she thought loved her.

Listening to the rest of the song Bella carefully tried to find meaning in the lyrics – to try to see if she could pull anything else out from the song that showed a parallel world to what she was living in now.

Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, time ago!

This part of the song was also true. There had been countless times that Edward had spoken to her in a way that made her think he was about to leave her. But she never believed that he would. The very first time they ‘met’ Edward had wanted to kill her. When he told her this she felt a little scared, but would never let on. She loved him, vampire or not. When she realised that he was a vampire she should have started running from him. And a part of him wished that she had, she knew that.

There had been times that she knew he wanted her to walk away, or that he wanted to be the bigger man and walk away himself. But neither ever could, and both knew that. Edward and Bella – the perfect couple. Neither could live without the other. Until now.

Closing her eyes, Bella let the music transport her into another world. Sure the song had a little meaning to her under the current circumstances, but she didn’t know what would happen during the rest of the song. Or the other special ‘subliminal messages’ it carried within its lyrics.

And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you!!!

Sitting up with a jolt, she couldn’t believe what she’d just heard. Bella carefully went over the lyrics in her head. This song was telling her that she and Edward were over, but that things would get better. All she needed to do was get over him. She couldn’t fathom that. No she wouldn’t fathom it. She and Edward belonged together, and a song couldn’t, or wouldn’t change her mind.

Bella was now a little more wary of the seemed ‘magic’ the current song playing on her stereo possessed. “Surely this song can’t have anything else for me”, she thought to herself. How wrong she was.

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say,
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other’s opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me

With every lyric Bella grew sceptical. “This can’t be an ordinary song”, she thought to herself, her mind working overtime. “There has to be something to this. It’s spoken about Edward and I almost too perfectly – this can’t be happening”. 

Try as she may, Bella could gather no real theory as to why this song was supposedly ‘speaking’ to her. All too soon the chorus came around again. The same passage that told her that things will get better, all she needed to do was pick up the pieces of her heart, put them back together and move on. A few minutes ago she would have thought it impossible, but now she seemed to warm to the idea that she could live her life via what a song told her to. The lyrics were making her stronger, almost willing her to pick herself up and move on. To start again and slowly, Bella started believing them.

Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, time ago!
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally getting’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you!!!

With every word of the song Bella seemed to gain the strength to believe in what was being said. So much so that she started to sing along with it in her head. Each time the chorus came around Bella felt more empowered. She actually believed the song held her future for her. She was indeed going to be strong again.

“I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you”

And I never saw it coming
I should have started running
I’m finally getting better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!

Bella didn’t know how it had happened, but through the power of music she was looking on things a little more positively. A mere few minutes ago she thought her life was over. Eight simple words were going to be the end of her, how wrong she was.

She went to her drawers, pulled out her diary and started to make an entry about what had just happened. Detailing everything from Edwards’s note, to the song, and how she was now feeling. Writing it all down filled her with mixed emotions, but at least now she had some sort of outlook. She was now feeling the strength she lacked moments beforehand. She felt a little better now, and as she gazed out her window thinking of everything a line of the song popped into her head. Picking up her pen, she wrote the final part of her entry. Sealing the fact that she was in fact going to be alright, that she was going to pick up the pieces of her heart and move on.

The day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you…

And then it was over. She and Edward were no more. It was simply just Bella from now on. Sitting at her desk she re-read her entry – smiling to herself at how a song could hold so much. She still felt that someone was watching her but didn’t think too much of it.

Placing her diary back into her drawer, Bella stood up and took a final look around her room. Photos of her and Edward held the memories of the past. She would need to clear room for the new photos of which would hold the memories of the future. Walking out the door she thought she heard a noise, looking back towards her room she saw nothing. “Just my mind playing tricks again”, she thought, as she walked downstairs to fix dinner.

Just outside her window was a tree, a tree in which did in fact hold someone who had been watching Bella the whole time. He entered her room swiftly, and took the diary out of the drawer reading the newest entry. When he got to the last line he stiffened. He knew that she would eventually get over him, but didn’t think it would happen a few hours after he wrote that note and left it for her. Putting everything back in its place he walked to the window. Taking one last look around the room he’d spent so much time in the past year he felt a pang of guilt. “It’s for the best”, he thought to himself. And with that he was gone; Edward was now out of her life for good.

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