i was perfect. (whoremosexual) wrote in lion_lamb,
i was perfect.

Updated FF | Crossing the line | Chapter one

Title: Crossing the line
Author: Noelle / whoremosexual
Characters/Pairing: Edward and Bella. Some of the others will show their faces.
Rating: M/ NC-17
Category: Drama & Angst
Warnings: AU-AH, Sightly OOC, and lemons
Summary:"There is a thin line in the pavement of our friendship and we crossed it." Can an affair be right if it's with your best friend?
Notes: A big thanks to spread_the_fun for being my beta!

Read it here or over at ff.net


Some kind of horrible version of a once-amazing Christmas song was playing in the background as I tried my hardest to drink my mom's nasty eggnog. I loved my mom dearly, but she really should stay away from the kitchen. “Ugh”

“Oh, Bella, it's not that bad.” Esme walked into the kitchen, trying not to laugh. Esme is Edward's mom and a family friend. Her long brown hair gently bounced up and down as she walked over to me, holding an empty serving plate.

Edward and I first met when we were both seven years old, when his mom and mine met in the grocery store. My small fingers were holding onto the shopping cart as my mom tried to pick up a very heavy ham. “Oh, let me help you with that, dear.” Esme told her as she helped pick up the ham. Edward was sitting in the shopping cart, pretending he was in a race car. We couldn't stop looking at each other. My cheeks fired up as he showed his crooked smile. After a couple play dates, Edward and I became best friends.

“It really is.” I moved the cup closer to her “Here, see for yourself.”

She shook her head 'no' “I love Renee like she was my own sister, but I will not be drinking that.”

I laughed as I placed the cup down.

“So what do you think about Edward's new girlfriend?” Esme asked.

That should be a simple question, but it really wasn't. I don't know why but I never seemed to like them. They never were good enough for him, but of course, I would keep my thoughts to myself.

Rachel is so sweet. Rachel was cocky and wore too much make-up.

Ashely has an amazing mind. Ashely was dumber than a box of nails.

Lucy is a great girl. Lucy was a bitch who hated me.

Tanya is Edward's new girlfriend. He hasn't told me how they met but he seemed happy with her. Of course, I was happy for him. Like he was when I met Mike.

“Tanya seems really nice.” I told her. That really wasn't a lie. I have only met her a couple of times. She looks like she could be a bitch, but for right now she was friendly.

Before Esme could say anything we heard the front door close.

“That must be Edward.” I smiled as I walked out of the kitchen.

As I got closer to Edward, I saw Tanya with him, both smiling sweetly. I was about to greet them but I stopped myself. Tanya pulled Edward's face closer to her own then kissed him. It wasn't a sweet, little kiss. It was more like I-want-you-so-badly- right-now kind of kiss. It was a new sight for me. I have seen Edward kiss other girls before, but seeing that much passion made me feel....angry. I must have made a noise because they pulled apart.

Tanya laughed “Oops, looks like we got caught.”

“Hey, Bella.” Edward greeted me.

I tried to say something, just to let some kind of words out of my mouth but nothing did. I just smiled like an idiot then walked away. I walked to the living room and sat down on the sofa.

What the fuck?

Why would I feel anger at this scene?

I ran my fingers through my hair, trying to calm myself. I didn't want to think about what I just saw or how I felt by it. Before I could calm myself my cell phone started to ring.

It was Mike, my boyfriend.

“Hey, where are you?” I asked.

“Babe, I can't come tonight. It's work. They need someone to cover Tim's shift.”

I laughed bitterly. This Christmas' Eve party was very special to my family and Cullens. We had been doing this for over ten years. And what made it even more special was that this was the very first time, the children were allowed to invited their boyfriends or girlfriends. We never knew why we couldn't invite them, but I guess this year was different. Alice, Edward's cousin who moved in with them when she was sixteen, brought her life-time boyfriend, Jasper. Emmett, my brother, is single so he came solo. Of course, I invited Mike and Edward came with Tanya.

“I'm sorry but you know this is important.”

I rolled my eyes. I knew this was important to Mike but...”You promised Mike. You told me no matter what came up, you would come to this party and now you are canceling. Come on, they can find another person.”

“I will make it up to you. Love you.” Mike hung up the phone.

“Goddamn it.” I mumbled to myself.

“Is everything ok?” Edward asked as he sat down with me.

I sighed “Mike's not coming.”

“I'm sorry, Bella.” He wrapped his arm around my shoulders and with that, I felt ok. I didn't feel hurt that Mike ditched me, or confused by my feelings of seeing him with Tanya. This is how I felt when I was with Edward. He always made me feel good.

With dinner done and everyone clearing out their dishes, Tanya's cell phone made a beeping noise. She flipped open her phone then sighed out loud.

“I'm sorry, but I need to get leaving. The meal was amazing, Esme.” She turned to Edward and before she could kiss him good-bye, I turned my head away. I wish it was because it was a private moment, but it was only because I didn't want to feel that kind of anger again.

“That's too bad Tanya couldn't stay. We still have Renee's delicious fruit cake.” Esme said as she picked up a couple wine glasses.

Emmett tried to smother a laugh that wanted to come out which made everyone look at him.

“Sorry.” He said before our dad, Charlie slapped him on backside of his head.

I rolled my eyes. This was a very normal thing; Emmett would say something stupid and Charlie would hit him.

The night went on and everyone kept busy by eating mom's fruit cake and telling stories. We all ate the cake without any gagging or fake smiles because it was surprisingly good. Well, if you didn't eat the green little things that looked like...olives.

It was around ten when everyone started to leave. Dad left with Emmett first, and then mom, then Alice and Jasper said their good-byes and thanks and they too left.

“Well, your father and I are going to call it a night. Make sure to lock up when you guys leave.” Esme told Edward. They both hugged.

“Thanks for everything.” Edward and I said at the same thing.

As I started to get my coat, I realized I needed a place to stay. I lived with Mike and I wasn't in the mood for any kind of fight when he got home, so I would do the next best thing – avoid it.

“Hey, Edward.”

“Yeah?” He asked.

“Would it be ok if I crashed at your place tonight? I will understand if you say-”

Edward cut me off “Of course you can.”

Edward lived in a nice studio apartment. It had a sort of small kitchen, one bedroom, a tiny bathroom, and a large living room. There was nothing on the walls and very basic furniture. To most people this place would feel unwelcoming but it was different for me. It always felt like home to me. Cozy and warm.

“Are you sure it's ok if I stay here?” I asked. “Wouldn't Tanya mind if she saw me sleeping on your sofa?

He smiled his always amazing crooked smile “First, I'm more than ok with you staying here. Second, Tanya knows you are my best friend and she won't mind. And third, you are not sleeping on the sofa. You're sleeping on my bed and I will sleep on the sofa.”

I rolled my eyes. This was going to be a long night.



I knew what was going to happen but I was going to stand my ground. I was stubborn and so was Bella. Let the best one win.

“Nope, I'm sleeping right here.” Bella smiled as she patted the one of the sofa cushions.

“Well, I'm not sleeping in my bed and I'm getting tired, so be a dear and move off my bed for the night.”

She laughed her cute little laugh as she laid straight on the sofa. “I'm not moving.”

I could simply let her sleep on the sofa but that would mean she won so...

“Edward, put me down!” Bella squeaked as I lifted her body off the sofa. “You're not playing fair!”

I laughed but didn't say anything.

“Ugh!” she whined as I walked into my bedroom.

I gently placed her on the bed. “Now good-night, Bella.” I started to laugh as I tried to walk away. The only reason why I couldn't make it to the door is because Bella grabbed my shirt and with all of her might, pulled me down on the bed. I landed on the side of her.

“That's what you get, Edward. I hope you're happy.” She told me as she giggled. Bella tried to get off the bed but I pulled her on top of me and started to tickle her sides.

“Stop it...Edward” She told me through the laughing. She tried to get up but I kept tickling her. “Y-you're so mean.”

Bella's face was so close to mine as she laughed. The thought of kissing her entered my mind. What the hell? I thought to myself. Where did that come from? Confused by my thoughts, I stopped my hands. She started to calm her laughing so she could catch her breath. The same thought remained in my head so I did the unfamiliar thing – I kissed her.

Bella hesitated for a split second but when she got over the surprise, her lips moved with mine. They molded together as we caught each other's moans. God, she tasted amazing, better than I could have ever imagined. But when my hand started to slip under her top she jumped off me. Bella was still on the bed but she stayed as far she could from me.

I sat up, putting my back against the headboard. Bella's fingers touched her lips as her eyes were wide.

I tried to say something but nothing came out. Should I apologize, even though I didn’t feel sorry? Before I could think about it anymore, Bella spoke.

“Do it again.”
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